Provision

Told in one of our classes we were talking about God's provision for us. We were talking about Abraham and Isaac. Not only did God provide Isaac in such an incredible way, but He provided a situation for Abraham to prove his faithfulness to God. God asked Abraham to sacrifice his son, that he loved very dearly, and Abraham did not even hesitate.

I was thinking about this today in class and wondered how much I am willing to sacrifice for God and how often is my trust 100% complete in Him. Before we moved to Canada, finances were never really an issue for me. I was raised to work hard and save my money. As soon as I did move out and got married, God always provided a steady job. So in leaving our life in Arlington Heights and moving to Canada with no job and no stable income, I was slightly nervous, but excited to see how God would provide.

Today after sitting through class, amazed at the trust Abraham had and how God continually provided for him, I was just really excited. It may have been that I actually made it through class without leaving to throw up, but I was really in awe of God. So here are Brion and I, sitting in our house. Me watching friends and Brion on his computer playing video games and our doorbell rings. Now my first thought is, SHOOT, it's trick-or-treaters and they came to our door and we don't have candy for them!!! Brion's idea is to ignore the doorbell. Well, then they knocked. They obviously knew we were in here.... Brion went to break the bad news while I hid under the covers pouting. Turns out it was a couple from our church that we attend here. They had a huge box of stuff for us, I mean HUGE. They brought us Francine Rivers books, potatoes and ham, a humidifier (the dryness has really been bothering Brion), a baby blanket (which I may or may not have been snuggling with the whole night), cookbook, candy, flowers, magazines on parenting and some other stuff. I was floored. I teared up going through all the stuff, especially when we got to the baby blanket.

Ok, so I probably didn't have to go through all of that here on this page, but I am just so astounded. Since we have moved here, people have been showering us with love and kindness and food! God knows what we need and He provides. ALWAYS. I am shocked. I feel undeserving, but God doesn't care. He knows exactly what we need and He provides always.

I always tell myself that I won't write so much, but God is great and I guess I just couldn't keep this in. I hope this encourages someone. God knows your needs and He will meet them. I have so much to be thankful for!!

Whoa Baby

This was Written a few days ago....

Today is a beautiful day. Sure it may be raining, cold, windy and destroying all the fall leaves, but it is a wonderful day. Today Brion and I got to hear our baby's heartbeat. What a miracle. Instant tears in my eyes. I am so overjoyed. So excited that I couldn't even take a nap, which these days seem crucial at times. In six short months Brion and I will become parents. What a beautiful blessing and responsibility God has given us! These past six weeks of nausea were all worth it for the thirty seconds of  hearing baby's heartbeat this morning. To know that God knows everything about this tiny person inside me is just incredible. Needless to say, I am one very happy lady today :)

The Perfect Fool

I am such a fool. Who am I to question my Heavenly Father and what He thinks is best for me? I go through a small trial and wonder why God made me go through this. The timing seems so wrong and so unfair. Sometimes I am surprised at how small my faith is. I question the reasoning behind the trials, but I already know the answer. James explains to us that the trials we go through help us develop perseverance.

Just 15 minutes ago I was asking God why. Why this. Why now. I am so tired and just want relief. Here I am, having a pity party for myself, and I hear a knock at our door. I go answer it and there is someone standing with a loaf of bread for me. (She also gave me her leftover lasagna for Brion and I for dinner tonight!) My relief is in Him, He is my refuge and my strength.

SLAP IN THE FACE

I think thats what God was trying to do, but it was with His blessing. Who am I to question my Maker, my Master. He has blessed me so richly and always provides for my needs. First of all He gave me a wonderful husband who has been taking such great care of me. He has used so many people around us to shower us with their wisdom and wonderful cooking. He has used my sisters and my friends to lift my spirits. So why do I still question Him? I am such a fool, but God loves me anyway. When I am weak, He makes me strong. I could be looking at this time of hardship as a blessing, but sometimes that is just so hard to do when we're in the thick of it.

All this to say, I'm feeling a bit humbled today. God has me in the palm of His hand and that is the perfect place to be. I need to just trust Him and learn to be content right where He has me!